Awkward
Just came back from meeting up with my colleagues.
Where and what did we do?
First we've been walking aimlessly in the mall and besides that they're checking out a dress as well for a party.
Whenever I look at them.. i couldnt help it but to feel envy about their life and themselves.
I have to admit that my worst weakness is none other thn my confidence about myself.
People are saying that rather than disliking your distorts, turn to like them and it'll boost up your confidence level ... however ... for some reason .. I couldnt do that because I know how reality trates me all the while till now ... the distorts will always remain ...... and how can i like them??
Sigh ... they also did mention this .."do what you think is the best for yourself"
what is the best for myself? I couldnt even answer that ... pathetic .. that how I feel about myself at this moment. ....
"Learn how to live up your life" ... how can I do tht without any money?
how can I do that without my luck on my side?
"Start to date different guys" ... this is totally out of question ... no ONE ever going to set his eyes on me ... and in here we are back to the distorts part.
No GUY going to approach or hit on me ... it is reality and I know this well other than others ...
SIGH
they just dont understand ....
oh yeah .. i dont even understand myself how can they understand me?
...
Where and what did we do?
First we've been walking aimlessly in the mall and besides that they're checking out a dress as well for a party.
Whenever I look at them.. i couldnt help it but to feel envy about their life and themselves.
I have to admit that my worst weakness is none other thn my confidence about myself.
People are saying that rather than disliking your distorts, turn to like them and it'll boost up your confidence level ... however ... for some reason .. I couldnt do that because I know how reality trates me all the while till now ... the distorts will always remain ...... and how can i like them??
Sigh ... they also did mention this .."do what you think is the best for yourself"
what is the best for myself? I couldnt even answer that ... pathetic .. that how I feel about myself at this moment. ....
"Learn how to live up your life" ... how can I do tht without any money?
how can I do that without my luck on my side?
"Start to date different guys" ... this is totally out of question ... no ONE ever going to set his eyes on me ... and in here we are back to the distorts part.
No GUY going to approach or hit on me ... it is reality and I know this well other than others ...
SIGH
they just dont understand ....
oh yeah .. i dont even understand myself how can they understand me?
...
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